Dear God,

I feel so angry and scared at the same time. Which one first: bad news or bad news? Let’s start with the bad news, shall we? I am going to lose 2 visas because of a misunderstanding at Sunsplash (sooo much fun!). I didn’t know we had to turn in our homework! I’m angry because ****** never helps me! I always help her (**a whole anecdote on how I help her…too long and personal to post**). Ok, well I love you.

P.S. Does **** like me? Oh, I guess that’s another thing to worry about!

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This entry definitely sums up all the petty problems a 6th grader would worry about. I stifled some laughter seeing just how rapidly my emotions change. (If my emotions changed that much in writing, I can’t even begin to fathom how bipolar I was in real life)

Dear God,

I love you. I feel very excited that we are going to the house in the mountains. Please help us have a safe trip. Thanks!

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I couldn’t figure out why I was so moved at this entry. I think it might have been the fact that this prayer was so simple. Too simple. Yet back then, I decided it was important enough to let God know. 

Dear God,

Mom and Dad are fighting again. Please help them stop. Please help Dad stop spoiling us. Thanks a bunch. I <3 God.

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I was debating if I should even post this entry since it is kinda personal but I came to the conclusion that every entry should be posted so there it is. 

Dear God,

Thank you for letting me swim today. Thank you for letting Jason not get a cold. Thank you for letting Michael’s mom heal, whatever happened. Thank you for everything. I want to thank you for lots more, but writing it down will take days and waste a lot of trees. So I just put it in one word “everything”! I thank you for everything you did, done, and will do. I love God and will always remember.

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I was not a selfish person back then. While I did have my share of issues to ask God to fix, I never hesitated to thank Him for the most random of things. 

Dear God, 

Please help ****** and ***** not fight. Please help me get along with *****. I know it’s a short prayer but BYE! I <3 God for all he’s done.

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Wow two entries in one day. I definitely had a never-ending amount of problems to pray for.

Dear God,

Science Camp was soooooooo fun. I’m sorry I was mad at you a few times. I feel guilty because you’ve been so nice and I’m so mean. Please make me forget **** and move on. He’s so ugly after I told ******. Remind me to never tell anyone my secrets ever again. I <3 U!

P.S. Maybe I like ****! MAYBE!

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Yes, that was the exact amount of the letter “o“‘s in “so” that I wrote in my journal. I can only imagine just how fun science camp was and how hormonal i was back then. 

Dear God, 

First time writing! Today is ******’s birthday, but I guess you know. I feel excited. Science Camp is tomorrow! Will it be fun, scary, tiring, or you name it? I <3 U because you’re so good to me. You let me have ******* and ******** in my cabin group. And you let mommy buy lunchable for me. Even though she didn’t want to. I know you know, I know you <3 me. I <3 GOD. Bye!

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Well then. I was definitely very enthusiastic back then. I was also very liberal with the heart symbol. I cared a little too much about the simplest of things. However, I can only wish to have that kind of excitement back in my life. 

Hello Tumblr. Today I am starting a new series where I type out all my old entries from my prayer journal. This could take a while. So I’m naming this the Endless Prayers. All names will be censored to keep everyone’s privacy. At the end of each entry, I’ll probably add some sort of commentary. This should be interesting….